On being a stay-at-home-mom for while

I must admit that as a working mother, there were times that I dreamt of being a stay-at-home-mom so I can personally take good care of my kids. And because I am blessed to have and enjoy my two months maternity leave, that dream of being a stay-at-home mom is somehow granted even if it is just a temporary and in just a short period of time. But now, after staying at home for a month, I realized that being a stay-at-home-mom is indeed not easy.

While I love being with my kids, there were times that I feel so useless. My body and mind need some works to do not only those household choirs or just taking care of my kids but those office works I used to do every day. I already miss reporting to work as well as the people I used to work with. There were also times when I already felt so bored in life especially when both my daughters are sleeping. I am just so glad that I have my netbook with me as well as books to read that help me keep my sanity intact.

Maybe it is not yet the right time and I am not ready yet to be a full time mom. Or maybe this kind of feeling is just the post effect of giving birth. But the only thing that I am sure with myself right now is that I am happy with my kids and I am feeling so blessed to have them. Maybe the right time for me to be a stay-at-home-mom is yet to come when everything else is in place especially if those financial concerns are no longer a big problem to deal with.