Once upon a time, I was fond on writing poem. Dito ko nailalabas ang lahat ng aking nararamdaman, ang sama ng aking loob, at mga hinanakit sa buhay. Karamihan ng aking composition ay may sad theme simply because I went through a lot of pain during my younger years. I seldom voice out my problem to other people and writing poem became my outlet to lighten up my feeling.
I actually, kept all those poem I wrote and I want to share them here.
BUHAY AY PAMAMAALAM
Ang buhay ay isang pagbati at pamamaalam,
Pagbati na dapat bukal sa kalooban,
Ngunit darating ang araw dapat kang magpaalam,
Upang makamit ng iba ang kaligayahan.
Ang pamamaalam ay mahirap tanggapin,
Sa halip sumaya, sasakit ang damdamin,
Talagang ito’y napakasakit isipin,
Sana’y wala ka na kung magpapaalam din,.
Sabi nila buhay daw ay sadyang ganyan,
Kung sa araw na ito’y nasa sa’yo ang kaligayaham,
Bukas, makalawa na sa’yo naman ang kalungkutan,
Pagkat ang buhay ay isang pakikipagsapalaran.
Lahat tayo’y sadyang namamaalam,
Kahit na ito’y masakit sa kalooban,
Ngunit kailangang tanggapin ang katotohanan,
Pagkat ang sakit ay sa simula lamang.
Kahit ang sanggol sa sinapupunan,
Pagdating ng araw ay namamaalam,
Aalis at aalis sya sa kinalalagyan,
Upang ang mundo ay kanyang masilayan.
Mga bata ay aalis sa tahanan,
Iiwan ang kanilang mga magulang,
Sila ay pupunta sa paaralan,
Upang paghandaan ang kinabukasan.
May namamaalam rin sa mutyang paaralan,
Sa kanyang mga guro’t mga kaibigan,
Ito’y aalis at sila’y iiwanan,
Upang harapin ang bagong kinabukasan.
Padating naman sa pag-iibigan,
Pasasaan at isa’y mamamaalam,
Upang hanapin ang kaligayahan,
Na sa katipa’y di natagpuan.
Sa buhay ng tao, darating ang katapusan,
Babawiin na, buhay niyang hiram,
Sa mundong ibabaw siya’y mamamaalam,
Upang lasapin, buhay na walang hanggan.
Four and a half months after leaving the place I considered my comfort zone, I missed a lot of things.
I missed the work that I used to to do. The early morning rush just to meet the deadlines. The never ending follow ups to make sure that everything will be okay.
I missed my colleagues. I missed the friendship that we shared. The laughter and the non stop sharing of informations and everything. The talking and the discussions of any topics.
I missed the travels that i used to do. Even if it gave a lot of headaches, it also teaches me a lot of lessons and molded me into a much better person..
And of course, I missed the pay and all the allowances that I used to receive monthly.
But those things were just part of history. For in every decision that we made, we really need to face all the consequences. I am just so glad for all the things that happened to me.
One thing that I am sure right now, I am not stress, I am not haggard and less worried compared before.
It is true indeed that if one door closes, there will also another door or window that will be open for you. God is great and I am so greatful for all the blessings that He showered upon me.
Hey everyone! i' m back here in the blogosphere, and i feel like i owe some explanation for not updating here for very looooong time. I know there are lot of things that i missed here.
But of course, i'll try my very best to catch up with you guys. There are just some personal reasons that hindered me from writing online. But it doesn't mean that i stop from writing whats on my mind and in my heart. There are certain things that really not meant to be shared online. Like negative vibes that need to be kept away just not to spread them to others.
Life became so complicated for me. Work tested my patient and ate all my time and energy. And it turned out that even in giving all the best at my work is not enough. I did not get the promotion that i eyed for despite and inspite all the hardwork and loyalty given at work. Even worse, witnessing how the management fired those superior without due process only because they don't like them personally or have someone in their mind to replace them in the position.
Those events became an eye opener for me. Things that made me realized that i really need to do something about my future. Things that wake me up and made me decide to quit and look for some alternative outside the place i considered my home for almost ten years, a place i considered as my comfort zone.
I know it is not still too late to start my career and build for the future of my family. I just need to accept everything positively and trust God for He will not give me trials beyond my capacity.