parting time

Today, K.A.’s yaya is scheduled to leave us. A month ago, she said she wants to take a vacation in our province. But she did not assure us that she will come back. She let us look for another yaya while she is away.

After 11 months of her stay to us, I really felt sad that now she will leave us. It is very hard because I know that this afternoon when I came home, she is no longer there.

We will surely miss her.

She is my auntie but I treated her like as my own mom. My daughter will surely look for her present too.

I am very confident when my daughter is left with her while H & I are away from home almost 10 hours a day, five days a week.

But now that she is leaving us I feel paranoid. I feel really uneasy today. With so many deadlines today, I do not know if I can accomplished it right,

My daughter will be at home accompanied only by her new yaya. I do not know if she will be feed at the right time, changed clothes when she is sweat and taking care of properly on her other needs.

I really don’t know. For now, I just hope and pray that everything will be fine.